Those were the words of a deflated Orange United captain-coach on Thursday as Kurt Beahan's dealing with a feeling of 'deflation' as his debut season in the Wallerawang Landscaping Cup has been pushed back indefinitely.

But for Beahan, the excitement doesn't stem from an individual standpoint, rather it comes from the family-based culture that the Orange United club has built over the last five years, a group largely made up of Indigenous talent.

According to the 31-year-old, the behind-the-scenes work put in by the committee and the team has been extensive and those hard yards were set to come to fruition on the first week of April as the new-look outfit was poised to make its competition debut in its own backyard at the Orange knockout.

"It's a little disheartening to be completely honest," Beahan said.

"It's the team's first year in the competition and we've put in a lot of hard work at training and the committee's got us a uniform and training gear.

"The boys are completely shattered and the COVID 19 climate's got everyone in a state of shock."

Although Beahan admits to mentally retiring 'three or four times' in the last few years, the proud Indigenous Australian said when he caught wind of this concept kicking off in 2020, it didn't take long for him to put his hand up to take on a leadership role.

"I'm happy to put my hand up and go one more year," he said.

"We wait 12 months every year for the Aboriginal knockout to come around at the end of September.

"It's known to everybody as the biggest come together of Aboriginal people and to be able to pull together a community, Aboriginal side with your own community that you live with, work with, and your kids grow up with... that's very special for us."

You might be wondering why Beahan didn't choose to return to Group 10 as that competition is admittedly more prolific than the Midwest Cup, but the Narromine product said he's done his time playing grade and isn't at all tempted by a return to the green jersey.

"I just don't get satisfaction out of that anymore," he said.

"I'm very confident in my ability to play Group 10 but I'd rather spend that extra time with my kids and my little family.

"This team's about much more than football to me. Football's just the avenue that we've used to come together but we've built our own community."

Just like the vast majority of teams waiting for play to return, United is keeping busy in the Facebook group chat with a flow a steady flow of memes of banter.

"We've got all that sort of jazz in there," he said.

"Our president Jason French has also been really good at keeping us up to date with things in terms of committee meetings."